I'm at this point now, with almost 10 years more on my ledger. Between 30 and 40 I experienced the time of my life. I had not that much money but I traveled, got in touch with a lot of people, had some sporty hobbies, I was creative and yes I also dated a lot of women, but never was in a serious relationship. Looking back this would be what I call "freedom".

No I got a child, a well payed job and no time for nothing. I'm still kind of excited for new stuff, but I just don't have the time to pursue that. And that makes me feel sad and not needed, too. I became a consumer, am not a creator anymore. And I don't know what to do about it.

So yeah, not helpful, but I just wanna tell you, that you're not alone =)